ABOUT THIS PROJECT

I built this website to preserve the truth.
Somewhere along the way, it became a record of my entire life.

I am the woman behind I Am His Karma.

I am a mother, writer, photographer, survivor, community advocate, former licensed childcare provider, and trained mediator. Across these roles, much of my life has centered on care: caring for children, supporting families, navigating conflict, solving practical problems, preserving records, and trying to create safety in circumstances that were often anything but safe.

For years, I kept building a life while living inside conditions that gradually narrowed my choices, damaged my sense of security, and taught me to question what I could plainly see.

I raised children. I ran a childcare business. I managed appointments, bills, meals, crises, paperwork, relationships, and the endless invisible labor required to hold a family together.

From the outside, much of my life looked ordinary.

It was not.

This website began because I needed somewhere to place the truth as I uncovered it. It has become the place where I document what happened, what it cost, what survived, and what I am building now.

WHY I CREATED I AM HIS KARMA

I created this website because the truth kept arriving in pieces.

Messages. Photographs. Memories. Court records. Agency documents. Contradictions. Dates. Details that appeared isolated until I placed them beside one another.

I needed a place where my story could not be interrupted, denied, rewritten, mocked, minimized, or turned back against me.

At first, the site was about exposing another person’s behavior.

It was about the abuse, coercive control, betrayal, sexual secrecy, financial harm, abandonment, and destabilization I experienced. It was about preserving evidence before time, pressure, exhaustion, or someone else’s version of events could erase it.

But while I was documenting what had been done to me, I began documenting myself.

The mother who kept getting up.

The woman trying to calm a nervous system that no longer understood safety.

The person applying for work, raising children, caring for animals, taking photographs, writing essays, navigating courtrooms and agencies, losing things, asking for help, creating beauty, and starting over repeatedly.

The people who harmed me appear in this story because their decisions changed the course of my life.

But they are not the center of this website.

I am.

PAPERWORK SURVIVAL

I use the phrase paperwork survival to describe what happens when a person seeks safety or accountability through systems that are fragmented, slow, inconsistent, or difficult to navigate.

Life becomes hundreds of pages.

The person who has already been harmed is expected to remember everything, organize everything, preserve everything, explain everything, and prove everything repeatedly.

Dates matter. Exact words matter. Screenshots matter. Letters matter. Court records matter. Agency notices matter. The difference between a charge, a finding, a firsthand experience, and a personal interpretation matters.

All of this documentation can become another full-time responsibility layered on top of parenting, earning money, finding housing, managing trauma, and trying to remain alive inside an increasingly unstable life.

This website is where I stopped carrying that record privately.

It is where I began placing the pieces together so they could be understood in context.

WHAT YOU WILL FIND HERE

This website is part memoir, part documentary archive, part visual journal, and part record of an unfinished recovery.

MY STORY

The life I believed I was living, the truths I uncovered, the abuse and coercive control I experienced, and the aftermath my family and I were left carrying.

THE ARCHIVE

Chronological timelines, public information, photographs, messages, correspondence, redacted records, court documents, agency materials, and other supporting documentation.

ESSAYS

Long-form writing about betrayal, motherhood, poverty, relationships, identity, systems, survival, responsibility, anger, grief, beauty, and what it means to rebuild a life after its foundation collapses.

HEALING AND THE NERVOUS SYSTEM

Reflections on trauma in the body, fear, memory, hypervigilance, emotional regulation, medication, movement, creativity, safety, self-trust, and the slow process of teaching a nervous system that danger is not the only reality available to it.

PHOTOGRAPHY AND DAILY LIFE

My own photographs, including portraits, ordinary objects, animals, nature, family life, creative work, and the small moments that prove a person continues to exist beyond what happened to her.

THE WORK I AM BUILDING

My writing, advocacy, photography, creative projects, publications, and future business. This site is not only a record of what was destroyed. It is also the foundation of what I am creating next.

Some material is public. The complete Archive will be available through paid access.

Payment provides access to the published work. It does not provide personal access to me.

HOW THIS WORK MAY HELP OTHER PEOPLE

This website is also for people who recognize pieces of their own lives in mine.

It is for anyone who has been lied to so persistently that they stopped trusting their own perception.

It is for the person who knows something is wrong but cannot yet explain it.

It is for survivors trying to understand coercive control, betrayal trauma, narcissistic patterns, financial abandonment, nervous-system dysregulation, and the strange grief of discovering that the life they believed in was not the life they were actually living.

By sharing what I noticed, what I missed, what I documented, and what I learned afterward, I hope to give other people language for experiences that can be difficult to name.

I hope someone recognizes a warning sign sooner.

I hope someone begins preserving evidence before it disappears.

I hope someone understands that the physical symptoms in their body may be connected to prolonged fear and instability.

I hope someone feels less ashamed of how disorganized, frightened, angry, exhausted, or financially devastated survival can become.

I am not offering a perfect recovery story.

I am not presenting myself as someone who has already reached the other side and can explain the journey from a safe distance.

I am showing the process while it is still happening.

Sometimes another person’s story helps because it gives language to something we have been carrying alone.

Sometimes it becomes a light left on for the next person trying to find their way out.

DOCUMENTATION AND ETHICS

I publish my own writing, photographs, memories, firsthand documentation, public information, and material that I am lawfully entitled to possess or share.

I distinguish between:

My firsthand experience
My personal interpretation
Supporting documentation
Formal findings
Public records
Pending legal proceedings
Charges and adjudicated outcomes

I do not present every thought or conclusion as though it has been legally established.

Minors’ identities and sensitive personal information are protected.

Names, faces, addresses, contact information, schools, workplaces, medical details, identification numbers, signatures, account information, and details belonging to innocent or uninvolved parties may be obscured or withheld.

Documents may be cropped or excerpted so readers can understand the relevant material without receiving unnecessary access to another person’s private life.

Redaction does not mean the original record does not exist.

It means I have chosen to publish responsibly.

THE PERSON AND EVENTS DOCUMENTED

A substantial part of this archive concerns my relationship, separation, and divorce from Kyle Evan Morgan, also known online as Old Sick Dead, as well as the legal, agency, financial, and family-safety processes that followed.

He appears in this archive because his conduct and choices are central to what I experienced and to the consequences my children and I have carried.

This website does not exist to make him the central figure in my identity.

It exists because what happened affected my life, my family, my health, my work, my finances, my sense of safety, and my future.

The record is part of my story.

It is not the entirety of who I am.

CONTENT NOTICE

Some areas of this website are intended for adults only.

The material may include raw discussions of domestic abuse, coercive control, infidelity, pornography, sexual secrecy, narcissistic patterns, physical and psychological violence, financial harm, child-welfare involvement, trauma, family instability, and the aftermath of prolonged betrayal.

Some pages may contain disturbing descriptions, photographs, records, messages, and documentary evidence.

Explicit sections are clearly marked before entry.

The difficult details are not included for shock without purpose. They are included because secrecy can protect harm, because sanitizing abuse can make it impossible to understand, and because another person may recognize something here that helps them name what is happening in their own life.

WHAT THIS WEBSITE IS NOT

This website is not an invitation to harass, threaten, locate, contact, investigate, or interfere with anyone mentioned or depicted here.

It is not a discussion forum.

It is not a request for strangers to decide whether my experience was sufficiently painful.

It is not an offer of private correspondence, interviews, debate, emotional access, or personal explanations.

It is not counseling, legal advice, or medical treatment.

It is not a perfectly resolved recovery story written after every danger has passed.

It is a living record created while I am still surviving the consequences, protecting my family, and building what comes next.

SITE STATUS

I Am His Karma is under active development.

New chapters, essays, photographs, redacted records, timelines, healing reflections, and family-rebuilding updates will be added as the publication grows.

The complete paid Archive is coming soon.

This work helps me preserve the record, support my family, continue writing, and turn the material of a life that was repeatedly dismantled into something honest, useful, and lasting.

I did not create this website because I wanted my life to revolve around the people who harmed me.

I created it because the truth belongs to me.

And now, so does the story.