I Have the Emails
Contemporaneous emails and letters from 2008, 2009, and 2018 reveal how years of hurt, self-questioning, chronic blame, betrayal, and emotional depletion existed long before the marriage ended. A first-person record of nearly twenty years spent trying to be heard—and the life still being rebuilt afterward.
The Confession Hidden in Plain Sight
A personal letter written in 2019, more than five years before I left the marriage, documenting betrayal, chronic blame, impossible standards, emotional depletion, false promises, and the gradual loss of self.
Hostile Humor as Contempt, Withholding, and Identity Branding
A birthday artifact by Kyle Morgan, known on Reddit in the Buddhism community as “Old Sick Dead,” using playful design to deliver contempt, replace care with provocation, and enclose identity inside someone else’s mood.
Curated Persona, Private Record
Two portraits from the same hand, one rendered with tenderness and one with harsh reduction, showing how the public persona “Old Sick Dead” can be curated and circulated while the private record and lived impact tell a different story.
Second Arrow in Ink
Seeing my ex’s “What Second Arrow?” artwork, signed and branded as Old Sick Dead, tattooed on someone else highlights how a spiritual persona can be curated and circulated while the private record tells a very different story.