Everything I Notice
Essays on relationships, safety, nervous-system regulation, motherhood, trauma, identity, creativity, rebuilding, and the things I am learning as I move forward.
These pieces are personal, reflective, and written from lived experience. Some look backward. Others document what I am understanding now.
I Have the Emails
Contemporaneous emails and letters from 2008, 2009, and 2018 document hurt, self-questioning, chronic blame, betrayal, and emotional depletion years before the marriage ended. Together, they preserve a first-person record of my repeated efforts to be heard, repair the relationship, and understand what was happening while I was still living inside it.
Xavia Phoenix and Associated Identities: A Chronological Record
A chronological record of my observations, preserved communications, photographs, and public records involving Xavia Phoenix and accounts using associated names. The identities of individual account operators remain under review and are not independently established by every exhibit.